People come and go throughout your life. There are the friends that you had in school, that you keep in contact with. There are the friends that you see at work and some that you spend time with away from work. Then there are the ones that are so much a part of your life, that you find it hard to be without them.
I have a couple of friends that I find it hard to be without when life throws me the little curves it does. Births, Deaths and the all important curves that it sends your way, like the mid life melt downs that happen.
The melt downs seem to be the times that I turn to my best, and I don't use that word lightly, friends.
I can remember laughing, crying and melting into a puddle, and out of the blue I get either a phone call or a knock on my door. It is funny how as you get older, your priorities and views change. The things that meant so much to you, are just fleeting glimpses of the past. I have a very good friend that just moved from a large farm, to a duplex and then to a larger house. She thought that downsizing would be great. In the end, she realized that just because you don't have all the people living in your house, does not mean you need a smaller house. She is now happily living in a 3 bedroom home again, with her husband and son (who will soon be out on his own). Her house is a home full of love and enjoyment, even when there is no one home. Sometime your perceptions of what are important, change.
My ideas of things that are important are put together in my "Bucket List". I decided that once you turn 50, you should have a list like this. You want to be nimble enough to do the things on the list, but no so old that you cannot enjoy the things you want to accomplish. The following is my "Bucket List" and why I think I need to do these things.
1. I want to see ALL of my children in one place at one time. I think at some point in their lives, they should all meet. Then maybe they would understand why they are the way they are.
2. I want to visit the British Isles. Some of my grandparents and theirs were from England, Wales and Scotland. Someday I would love to go and visit and see why I am the way I am(slightly bent)
3. I want to build my dream house. Not so big, I designed it some years ago and it is just big enough for me and the hubby. Nice to come visit, but no place to stay, cleaning is not my forte.
4. I want to be able to sit and talk to my friends without worrying about having to go to work, clean the house, do the dishes, do the laundry, vacuum, or cook meals. --(maybe someday I will have a house keeper that will do a better job than I do).
5. I want to swim in the ocean again. I want to sit and watch the waves come in as I see the sun go down. What a beautiful way to end a day, a year, a life.
6. I want to live close enough to my family, that if something happens, I can be there in just a short time. (I am getting old and want someone to come take care of me when I get old and feeble. Oh crap, I am old and feeble).
7. I wish all the happiness in the world for all the people who have been a part of my life and helped me make it to this point in my life. (Just remember this is all because of you.)
8. I want to wake up, sit and look at my wonderful husband and tell myself " You are the luckiest person in the world, to have found the one person in the world who has given you all the joy in your life." (Dirty socks, snoring, stinky pits, bed farts, hairy dogs everywhere, and the ultimate joy, his beautiful face to wake up to.
9. I want to stare into the mirror and without hesitation, love the person I see looking back. (without having that ugly one standing behind me saying, get a grip, the only way you are going to look better is with Spackle and a putty knife.)
10. I want all this BS to stop and for everyone to wake up smell the roses, put on your big boy or girl panties and deal with life. Nothing is free. Your life is what you make it. So get off your duffs and do what needs to be done to accomplish your goals. You only get out of it, what you put into it. I want to meet the people who came up with all these sayings, take them down to the river and kick their sorry asses off the bridge. Put that in your pipe and smoke it.
This is the list. Now help me get through it. I have a good life all in all. I want to enjoy what is left of my life and share some of the good times with family and friends. Life is to short to worry about the little things. You get out of it what you put in. Here I go again with the stupid sayings. Time to quit. Time, to do fun things. Time, to spend with the people I love. Time, to give back. Time, to give. Time, to love and be loved. In the end, know that all was good.
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