You are not alone...just ask

Have you ever felt horrible, hopeless and helpless?  Has the thought of disappearing ever entered your mind?  Has your life ever made you ask yourself  "Why am I here or what am I here for?  Believe me when I say, depression is terrifying and not something to be taken lightly. 

There are many people that you know and love going through this right now.  You may not know it, but there are more than you may think.  This little feeling can be as small as being sad about breaking a special dish to the ultimate in sadness that takes a life and destroys it.  It can be as disabling as not being able to function, to the end, which is the thoughts of suicide. 

I know that many people say they are depressed, and never do anything about it, then there are those who are truely depressed and flirt with the thoughts of ending life.  I have been from one point on that scale to the other.  I have over the years come to terms with my life and all the things in it.  I have had sadness that no man, woman or child should have to endure.  I have had the sadness that happens with the loss of a child.   I have been alienated by my children.  I have been through divorce.  I have lived through my children being taken.  My love has been put to the test so many times, I can no longer count them.  I have moved thousands of miles away from my family and friends to a different country. 

Now you may think that this is a lot for any one person to endure.  You are right.  NO person should have to go through this.  I am very lucky in that I have my family to lean on and a wonderful husband that is behind me no matter what.  He has been through hell and back with me.  Then there was menopause. OMG.  Not sure how he put up with me through that.  Now my life has changed.  People look at me and say how strong I am, if they only knew.  I am not as strong as everyone thinks.  I hurt like them, I love like them and I need like they do.  For years I have been the one that everyone comes to in times of sadness, sorrow, and hurt.  It is funny how when you have done this for so long, when it comes to yourself, there is very few people you can turn to.  I have a couple of wonderful friends that I can go to for comfort.  It is hard for me to ask.  Somehow they just know when something is wrong and they call or just show up. 

I cherish my friends and want to tell everyone that has or is in the same predicament as me, look for someone that can hold your hand.  As they say "this too shall pass", or as my dad and mom told me "god never gives you more than you can handle".

Life is so precious.  Depression can be overcome.  Take the time to find someone that will hold your hand and get you through the rough stuff.  If you cannot find anyone like that, just ask.  I have been there and will help you through it.  Just ask.  You are not alone.. Just ask..